I am having so much trouble with convincing myself tht i deserve to eat healthy and feel good about myself. every day im going in and out of depression and hatred for myself and i dont know how to just keep on some form of progressive path. i dont even care if im losing weight anymore i just want to be consistent. being healthy and working out and eating right makes me feel better, thats all i need. but i dont deserve it. I just want to crawl into a hole and cry.